Made to Crave

What do you crave?  Maybe it's chocolate, maybe it's relationships, coffee, alcohol, something you don't or can't have?

This past spring my Bible study used a book written by Lysa Terkeurst.  I had never heard of the woman before, but I loved her.  I mean, I loved the book, I loved her writing - her honesty, transparency and down-to-earthness...I felt like we could be friends.

After finishing that book, I had heard that she had a few others and one of them was called, Made to Crave - the premise being something along the lines of God, food and us.  It intrigued me for so long and I've had it on my wish list since then, but never did anything about it.  Then around Thanksgiving time I just ordered it for myself, just out of the blue.

I started reading it and couldn't put it down.  I have underlined almost everything, read many passages aloud to Justin, cried through it, wondered how everything I had ever thought or struggled with about food was worded and expressed just so perfectly - HOW DID SHE DO THAT?  It has brought me to a whole new understanding of myself and my struggle.  It has challenged me in a way nothing else ever has (in regards to this subject) - challenged me in a way to finally get to the end of me and say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!  I WANT MORE!!!

I may be a bit confusing right now, but my story is long and I'm not sure if and when I'll spill it all, but I do know as I said before that I'm done hiding.  I'm ready to change and for me, that involves opening the closed door.  I can't do this alone and I can't do it in private, pretending on the outside everything is just fine.

Sooo, today January 3rd was the first day.  The first day of some changes around here.  I'm going back through the book, chapter by chapter and am going to be sharing quite a bit of that journey on here.  I'm excited.  I'm scared.  But I'm ready.  Let's go!